I Am

I wish I had something intelligent to say...

But today has been more than enough proof to showcase my ignorance and uncertainty. If there was to be a synonym to intelligence, I won't be on par with it today. Where did I go? Most importantly, where do I go from here?

I tried to take a step back and look at the bigger picture but the closest thing that I would get is the phrase "Now I know who to avoid..." going over and over in my head like some faulty radio. Would have listened to Rachael Yamagata but none of her songs are in resonance with my current predicament. Regina Spektor? She's too optimistic for me right now. Fiona Apple? I am depressed...not suicidal.

I miss what I had before, but it is rather funny that when I look back...all I can see is just a road that has spiralled out of control. So, where do I go from here? I have gone off too far to tread on past mistakes that I am not too proud of but yet addicted to like a drug.

I am writing this only to deviate myself from what that I thought have been true...but one of my favourite mistakes is to float on instead of walk on. I wish I had something smart to say...but I'm just at lost for words. I wish I have more lyrical prose to write but it should be in order that I give in to facts and figures. I wish I had something useful to do...but if there is no purpose to the doings of an activity...then why it's conception in the first place?

These questions are meant to be redundant. That said...they are there for you to see, but not for you to answer. For in life, that is often what that one needs once in a while...a question unanswered.

I am beginning to regret my actions of introducing you to this whole ordeal...but another one of my favourite mistake is offering people my warmth and in the end leave them in the cold when winter advances.

I am a tidal of emotions within. Just be prepared to be calm for the advance of my temperamental storm...for I am of who I wholly am...and only partially of who you think I am.

"I'm a million contradictions

Sometimes I make no sense

Sometimes I'm perfect

Sometimes I'm a mess

Sometimes I'm not sure who I am"

Better Together

What that I've presumed to be just another one of my occasional gathering with my friends turn out to be one of the best gathering I had...period.

Last night, along with Jun Lung, Eileen, P. Hwa, Micht, Wee Sheong and S.Jone; I went over to Desa Park City to go yam cha at Kluang Station. Well, actually it started as a party of five and later joined by P. Hwa during dinner and later on Jun Lung eventually caught up with us as a "surprise visitor". Lol...big surprise! Way to go Jun Lung =p

Ooh...and while we were at Kluang Station, we caught up with another three of our former classmates. And we were sitting like side by side...separated bya wall of glass...lol..they were sitting indoor and we were outdoors. Hahah...talking about a chance meeting!

After dinner we went over to the Coffee Beans where all of them except me shared some coffee. Apparently my brains don't go along very well to coffee...I get migraines everytime I have as much as a sip. Caffeine + Chester's brains = Immediate migraine

The highlight of the evening came when P.Hwa suggested that we go to the park and check out the swing. Owh...let me tell you, the swing is unlike the normal swing with the rectangular plank supported by two metal chains. Instead, it is sort of a giant circular basket. You can fit like five grown-ups in it. Its sort of a miniature version of that giant flying carousel at Genting Theme Park. The exception here is that it is meant for children between the ages of 8-12. So yeaahhh...you can only imagine the horror when a group of 18 year-olds start goofing around in the playground. Hahah..

I'll stop ranting now and start posting some random and err...not so random pics taken last night:

Lol...the "ah long" look. I think we nailed this guys..damn 'chunted' le

The "thousand arms" pose

Micht on one of the equipment in the playground

Lol...Wee Sheong looks like he is having an euphoria fixation

Jun Lung looking drunk

Now he just looks plain terrified

Wheee~ "Wt(f)un my shirt has a stampede of footfrints no thanks to y'all"

Camwhoring...hahah...I look damn "tard" in this pic

The 3 "farney barneys", 1 "acting sane" & 2 "friend hugs...aww"

Omg...that is just plain wrong

I am a deer

Some random poses

By the little stream a.k.a "sophisticated and aesthetically-designed drain"

"And all of these moments,

Just might find their way into my dreams tonight,

But I know that they'll be gone,

When the morning light sings,

And brings new things,

For tomorrow night you see,

That they'll be gone too"

Begin the Begin

Alrightayyy...so...since I've decided to revive my blogging shites and all that, I figure a new blog should be in order since I've reached the centennial post in Soliloquy.

Hence, welcome to my all-new (more adult and less childlike?) blog called "Happenstance & The Reason Why...". Well I only decided on the transition because there seems to be more stuff that one could add on a blog-hosting site such as Blogger here...and I will have more control of this blog...in terms of its design layout and what not. Besides, to all you optimistic polyanna, you won't be receiving anymore of those annoying e-mail from Friendster stating that I just updated my blog...so yeaaahhh

I'm not gonna go on length and describes the meaning behind the name of this blog or any of that stuff...I decide I'll just let it unravel by itself through the course of this blog's growth.

I've nothing much to write about now though...gotta get back to Campbell & Reece for some "enlightening" reading...

"Answer me a question I can't itemize

I can't think clear, you look to me for reason

It's not there, I can't even rhyme here in the begin"